I seriously don’t feel like myself lately. I’m looking at things differently and people differently and I feel like an outcast in the world and its fucking awkward.

• Have you ever:
• 1) Self harmed? -Yes.
• 2) Got into a real fight? -No.
• 3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed? -Yes..
• 4) Tried to commit suicide? -Yes.
• 5) Had to lie to EVERYONE about how you felt? -Yes.
• 6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting? -No.
• 7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble? -Yes.
• 8) Accused someone of using you? -Yes.
• 9) Shoplifted? -No.
• 10) Gotten drunk/high? -Fuck yea.
• 11) Been to a concert where your favourite artist was playing? -Not yet.
• 12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game? -Yes.
• (Right now) Are you:
• 13) Suicidal? -Not at the moment..
• 14) Bored? -Yes..
• 15) Avoiding someone? -No.
• 16) Avoiding some task? -Yes.
• 17) Depressed? -Yes.
• 18) Crying? -No.
• 19) Annoyed with a friend? -Yes.
• 20) Worried and confused about something important to you? -Yes.
• Do you:
• 21) Get depressed easily? -Lately. The last 3 months.
• 22) Get jealous/envious easily? -No.
• 23) Feel listening to music can take your mind off things? -Sometimes.
• 24) Worry about messing about your relationships a lot? -I always do.
• 25) Try hard in all your classes at school? -No.
• 26) Go out drinking? -Yes.
• 27) Smoke cigarettes? -No.
• 28) Smoke weed? - Yes.
• 29) Do any hard drugs? -No.
• 30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, Why? -Cause it’s not a fuckin gateway drug.
• 31) Believe in God/Belong to a religion of your own free will? -NO.
• 32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them? -No.
• 33) Agree that self harm numbs emotional pain? -I don’t know.
• 34) Believe people deserve second chances? -Yes.
• 35) Agree with ‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth’? (ignoring the religious relation to that saying) -What..
• 36) Think things will get better? -No.
• 37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished? -Yes.
• 38) (be honest) Do you judge people who think differently to you? (seriously, be honest) -To a certain extent, 
• Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend:
• 39) Long hair OR short hair? -Short.
• 40) (For Girls one) nice smile OR nice abs? -Smile.
• 41) (For Guys one) nice smile OR nice chest? -Nice smile.
• 42) Shy OR open? -Open.
• 43) Eyes OR body? -Eyes.
• 44) Religious OR non-religious? -Non.
• 45) Caring OR non-restricting of you? -Caring.
• 46) Straight edge OR non-straight edge? -?
• 47) Piercings OR no piercings? -Meh, depends.
• 48) Tattoos OR no tattoos? -Depends.
• 49) Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type? -Both.
• 50) Has friends you get along with OR has parents you get along with? -Both.
• Would you:
• 51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk? -Of course.
• 52) Smoke weed? -Yes.
• 53) Smoke cigarettes? -No.
• 54) Get even with someone who betrayed you? -Kinda.
• 55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you? -Not entirely…
• 56) Attempt to kill yourself if everything fails you? -Yes.
• 57) Keep your faith (any religious view) no matter what? -No.
• 58) Join a band as a part time activity? -No.
• 59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse? -No.
• 60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone strongly goes against them? -Yes.
• 61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what is was like? -NOOOOO.
• 62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family? -No.
• 63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online? -No.
• 64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported? -No. I confront them niggas.
• 65) Be friends with someone who was nice to you, but a cunt to other people? -Kinda.
• 66) Not like someone simply because your friend(s) didn’t like them? -No.
• 67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them put up with your problems? -No.
• 68) Starve yourself so you fit some certain clothes? -No.
• 69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes then which part of you? -Not yet.
• 70) Sleep naked? -Yes, sometimes.
• You can only choose one:
• 71) Black or Orange? Black.
• 72) Metalcore OR Post-Hardcore? Metalcore.
• 73) Cellphone or Computer? Cellphone.
• 74) Chocolate milk OR Coke? -Coke.
• 75) Tumblr OR Friends? Tumblr.
• 76) Apple OR PC? Apple.
• 77) TV Shows OR Movies? Movies,
• 78) Old bands OR new Bands? Bands.
• 79) Pop-Punk OR Alternative Rock? -Alt.
• 80) Reading OR Listening to music? Music.
• 81) Coke OR Pepsi? Define your reason for your choice. -Coke. It’s fuckin good.
• 82) Staying who you are OR changing yourself drastically? -Staying my real nigga self.
• 83) Breakdown OR Clean vocal bridge? -?
• 84) Jonny Craig OR Kellin Quinn? Define your reason for your choice. -Neither.
• 85) Ronnie OR Craig? Define your reason for your choice. -Neither.
• 86) Your life as a comedy OR Your life as a documentary? -Comedy.
• 87) Go to outer space OR Go all around Europe? -Go to outer space from Europe.
• 88) Shoes OR Shirts? Shirts.
• 89) Chelsea Grin OR Suicide Silence? Suicide Silence.
• 90) Drop out of school to get a job OR stay at school and finish your education. Define your reason for your choice. -Be cool, stay in school.
• Almost over:
• 91) So far have you told 90 truths? And for fuck sake be honest. -Obviously.
• 92) Are you quiet about your social life with your family? -Nah.
• 93) Do you want to travel when you are older? -Yes.
• 94) Would you let go of people who mean the most to you to follow your dreams? -No.
• 95) Did you notice there are no sex related questions? -Yes.
• 96) Rather be the opposite gender? -Once a month.
• 97) What will you name your son/daughter? -Boy: Adrian, Aiden, Hayden. Girl: Lilly, Emma.
• 98) Do you get harassed more than most people do? -No.
• 99) What band do you hate the most? Define your reason. -One Direction.
• 100) What makes you a bad person in your mind? -I’m an open, blunt cunt bitch and I don’t care, cause I’m a real nigga. 

1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?

-Graduation and guys. 

2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?

-No.

3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?

-No.

4: Do you find it easy to trust others?

-Not at all.

5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?

-Prom.

6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?

-Nicole Madden or Taylor Durham. 

7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?

-Chop his dick off.

8: Are you close with your dad?

-Yes.

9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right?

-No.

10: What are you listening to?

-Silence. Well, keyboard.

11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?

-Red bull.

12. Do you like hickeys?

-Not when they’re visible. 

13: What time do you go to bed?

-5 o’clock in the morning. 

14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down?

-Always.

15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?

-No.

16: Do you always answer your texts?

-Yes.

17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?

-No.. 

18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?

-Today.

19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?

-No.

20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?

-Fuck , I gotta get up in 2 hours.

21: Is anyone else in the room with you?

-No.

22: Do you believe what goes around comes around?

- Meh. Depends.

23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?

-Yes :(

24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?

-YESSSSS.

25: In the past week, have you cried?

-No, actually.

26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing?

-Grey.

27: Do people ever call you by your last name?

-I wish.

28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?

-Yes, as a matter of fact. 

29: Do you have a best friend?

- Yes..

30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?

-No.

31: Who was your last call from?

-Marquitos. 

32: Are you mad at anyone?

-Yes.

33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

-Yes.

34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?

-Haha.

35: How many more days until your birthday?

- A lot.

36: Do you have any summer plans yet?

- NO.

37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?

-Yes.

38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?

-No.

39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?

-Yes. 

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?

Yes.

41: Do you think age matters in relationships?

-Yes. To an extent. 

42: Are you available?

-Yes. Not really emotionally though.

43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?

-Still in school, and 1..

44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?

-Tongue. 

45: Do you believe exes can be friends?

-No..

46: Do you regret anything?

-Yes..

47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?

-A person.

48: Did you ever lose a best friend?

-Yes.

49: Was your last kiss a mistake?

-Kinda.

50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?

-I don’t know.

51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?

-No.

52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?

-Yes.

53: What was the last thing you ate?

-Chips.

54: Did you get any compliments today?

-Yes.

55: Where are you going on your next vacation?

-I don’t know.

56: Do you own anything from other countries?

- No.

57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?

-Girls, unfortunately.

58: Where have you lived most of your life?

-Washington. 

59: When was the last time you took a long drive?

-Too long.

60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?

-No.

61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?

-No.

62: Who do you text the most?

-People.

63: What was the last movie you saw?

-The Dark Shadows.

64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?

-I’m single as fuck.

65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2010?

1 .

66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?

-Yes.

67: Do you curse around your parents?

-No.

68: Are you happy with where you live?

-No.

69: Do you collect anything?

-No.

70: What’s your favourite colour?

-Green.

71: Does the last song you listened to remind you of anyone?

-Kinda.

72: Has anyone ever cheated on you?

-Not that I know of.

73: What are your plans for tomorrow?

-School.

74: Do you have siblings over the age of twenty-one?

-Yes. 21 actually.

75: Does your last ex have a job?

-No.

76: What would you do if you found out your most recent ex was in a relationship?

-Eh. That was soon.

77: Where is your cellphone?

-On my tits.

78: What colour is your cellphone?

-Black.

79: What did you dream of last night?

-I didn’t dream.

80: Are you atheist?

-Yes.

81: Will you change your name when you get married?

-Yes. Depending on his last name.

82: Are you ready for autumn weather?

-No ?

83: Have you had any big storms recently?

-No.

84: What kind of bottoms are you wearing?

Beavis and Butthead pajamas. 

Missing someone but can’t tell them. :( just breaks my fucking heart more. Can’t get shit off my mind.

I can’t be happy for more than a day.